To be or Not to be...

It has been a while since i have last posted anything on my blog, and the few people who have actually gone through it, asked me many a times to start writing again. But somehow i was lacking the motivation for it, or shall i say, i was distracted by other things happening in my life at that point of time. I started blogging when i had no one to really talk to,and hence blogging was my way to vent out my feelings, frustrations, passions(cooking...like u don't know it already!!!) etc. Which gave me a sense of normalcy.So now with the positive words of my dear friends, who made me realize that i should not give up on something that was my only refuge from utter boredom when browsing, i have now decided to start blogging more regularly.
So as my title says "To be or not to be..." may sound Shakespearean..but trust me has got nothing to do with the bard's brilliant classic. It has got more to do with my desire to travel. Sometimes in life i do wonder why it so does happen that you want to do something which means a lot to you, and yet, it appears that all the elements are working against you. I mean, i have been grounded at home for almost close to a year(trust me i am not exaggerating..its been 9 months and 5 days and still counting!!!). But mind you, its not because of something i did, but because of something that had happened, and which justified me being grounded, as well, lets face it, i anyway could not move around even if i had wanted to(being injured and all you see). So anyway for a person like me, who is so much used to being independent and craves freedom; being bound at home without the privilege of going out anywhere on my own, and having all my friends being screened to see if its safe for me to hang out with them, and also having a curfew that starts at a time that would seem unfair to even the kindergartners; could feel worse than being incarcerated at the torturous Kalapani. But i guess i can't complain, as being so overprotective about me is just my parent's way of showing their care and concern for my safety. And all this paranoia around my safety and health just translates to their love for me.

But nonetheless, i cannot resist this overpowering urge to fight against this overprotective paranoia that my parents(especially my mom...which you must have guessed by now) have developed towards me. Because lets face it, it is kinda suffocating being unable to have the freedom to do anything that makes you feel even remotely normal. I cannot keep feeling like a patient for the rest of my life. Hence for some trace of normalcy, i had decided to go to Hyderabad, which is not exactly just for satiating my urge for freedom, but also as i have some unfinished business that i have to see to. So its more like a business come pleasure trip, but which i am sure with the amount of time that i do get to spend there, would end up being, 90% business and 10% pleasure. And believe it or not, i have been trying to convince my family and friends that i am fit enough to travel and that it is so important that i make this trip, but it always reaches a dead end due to many factors. To name a few, firstly the Telangana riots(those dumb numskulls have no idea why they are destroying the city that they are fighting so hard to acquire in the 1st place); second, the fact that fact that i will start work soon, and so if i have only 2 weeks of free time to plan any outing, after which its going to be next to impossible for me to travel; thirdly, i do not have anyone for company to travel with me(read the fine print..that my parent approve of..if not i have many great friends who can take good care of me);fourth, the only person who is kinda allowed to accompany me, can only make the trip on a weekend, giving me less than 2 days of time to wrap up my work at Hyderabad; fifth, the Ugadi festival coming up, making it hard to get the train tickets if i at all get to travel; sixth, my sister coming home for the holidays, hence preventing my sole company for travel to cancel on me..and the list can actually go on and on and on.
So keeping all these factors in mind, i seem to wonder if it is ever gonna be possible for me to travel any day soon, or is it gonna just be a distant dream, which hopefully comes true in my distant future at least.
But that doesn't mean that i will give up..because that is something i never do, until i make sure that i have exhausted every last possible resource that can fuel my plans. So i am having my fingers crossed, and please keep your fingers crossed as well and pray that i do get to travel and have some well deserved fun...i so need it!!! :-(

A New Beginning

i know its been a while since i last posted anything on my blog..but well the reason for my absence was my not feeling much well now a days! its just that when you are not doing or feeling well u just don't feel like doing anything much at all.
so hopefully il feel better soon and get back to regular blogging!
infact you know what..i am actually planning on starting a different blog tat gives information or let me say..Tips on how to understand the opposite sex. In fact i do not profess to have the ultimate knowledge..but yeah, to an extent i do know a thing or two that the guys out there ought to know to get their special someone and keep them happy, without making the guys feel tat she is from Venus and he is from mars!! so once i do start this aspect of my blogging i will let u know soon!!ta taaa!!!